i got this clot that says that i can't do a thing,
  and it kills me that what i love i can't do.
  my mind is torn,
  my life is smashed up.
  and i know it's right and i feel it's time to kill...
  i'm in panic because i can't breathe...
  i have this feeling in my gut to the point of nausea and i feel so,
  so fucking empty.